An new person attracts your attention and your interest.
Resilience is an important emotional skill to develop and embrace. Fear of failure often freezes us in our tracks, preventing us from moving forward with purpose and hope. Allow yourself to make mistakes as you move forward in life, and build up your resilience so that you can bounce back from those mistakes with purpose and a fresh perspective.
Don't whinge and whine to a recruiter. They're not your friend. They're a professional who gets paid to place amazing people in the right job. They're not career counselors. If you're too much work, and they can't see your worth, they won't see you as a profitable person to shop around to employers.